Suprisingly I can be so calm and steady now when I would be crying like a baby last time.

Maybe I have changed gradually with all the things I have to face alone, without u beside me.

I know what I feel , not that I don't care but I am lost. I am numb with everything...

Don't force me, neither do push me. This is what I am telling myself.

Am I concealing well or I have learnt to protec myself? Like what you've said. I am no longer me.

I miss the days the lovey-dovey we used to be.

Mission Impossible 4

Recently, I have a friend who is on a superb mission. She is gonna blame it all to me once she fails to accomplish- to be a SHOCKING AND GORGEOUS bridesmaid in her sister's wedding~

I promise that I will not reveal who you are...you know who you are...not a single clue about who you are. Sue Jane, I won't... I promise!!!


wahahha....let me tell you my plans on
"How To Spoil A Bridesmaid-to-be's Plan"

1. Increase her amount of rice to more than 3/4
   
2. Continue to feed her even she's 70% full, and till the food reaches her throat!
3. NEVER EVER remind her of her sit-ups
4. Try to talk to her and occupy most of her time. Don't remind her of her after-meal-physical exercise.
5. YES YES TO SNACKS. Tempt her all sorts of snacks~~~muahahhahha
6. Help her with extra irresistible, delicious food other than the 3 main meals~
7. Keep telling her that " having food is one of the blessings we human have"

Based on the 7-steps above, I shall say my plan will succeed in any time!

野蛮的小魔女

这是小魔女每次折磨了anata后的模样，累坏他了 >@<
偶尔的任性，偶尔的放纵，是让自己停下脚步缓慢下来的一刻。

就只限于哪一刹那间...

每当过了那一瞬间，我就发觉自己已经做错了。

从我对我的anata的态度，我就知道。每一次都不肯承认自己的无赖，任性与野蛮。明知道他所做的，他所说的，从来都没有为自己想过......都是在为我这个小魔女着想。。。

明明最爱的就是他，伤害他最深的也是我。一次又一次的... 不知他是否会像张惠妹里那首歌《最爱我的人上我最深》那样感慨呢？应该有呗~

这张可爱的脸孔，应该只有握有权力看到现场版吧？嘿嘿~

anata说过他很喜欢我们的这张合照。

虽说很简单，但我们都很珍惜对方，微笑都是打从心里散发出来的。

好怀念我们无论什么时候都一起的那段时光

只要有你在，我就好像一个在花园里发光发热的向日葵。

也可以是在被窝里找到了温暖的小女孩。

countless miserable days I've cost you and infinite apologies I've asked from you...and you're still by my side. Thank you that you found me amongst the crowd.

我说过，如果我再惹你伤心下辈子就做男人照顾你，你不会那么忍心吧亲爱的？:P

Cocoa Craved...

I have been craving for chocolates lately. AT A WRONG TIME.

At a time where the world is attacked by the milk-melamine case in China, and I am yet here craving for dairy products. Add on to it, I yearn for only PURE MILK CHOCOLATE! I enjoyed my friend's chocolate cake so much that I can't help eating non-stop!!!

CAN ANYONE PLEASE STOP ME~~~Hmm... I guess the melamine did something to my body's biochemical reactions...muahahahahahhaa


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Had been slacking these days. Many thoughts ran through my mind. I don't know how to sort them out. Just following the flow.

Thank you Jane bear and Daphne aka 大肥妮 ever since I am back here. Jane, I love your company ... and your 高"熊"... :P

will update more soon...

Pain in within...

Sometimes it's torturing... to see your beloved is not in good shape and you can't do anything to help.

Sometimes it's tormenting...to know that what you can do is within limitation.

Looking at her gasping, exhausting and still struggling for a living or to say to tell us that she is ok. I standing aside, can only do little things to aid her situation. Trying every little chance to help.

Both He doing NOTHING at all. Complaining, blaming, ignoring...are what they skillful at.

Another he is working very very hard. I know that you are aware of what is happening and you too are trying your best.Love you, goh.

I blame myself for not being the eldest at times, so that I'm old enough, capable to take care of her. Blaming myself for not being hardworking enough to earn scholarships so that she can stop working , which really taking a toll on her health.
Her health is deteriorating day by day and my heart is sinking silently every second.

Thank you my him who stand by me ever since he walks into my life and show ample support by action and mentally. Love you, Sam.

Still a long way to go for me to support her but I'm trying my best to ease her suffering every chance I seize. I always hope I can stay here and be there whenever I can but I couldn't. Earning a degree is what I can do now. Love you, mom.

Your health is the most precious thing that I would try to sustain no matter what. Nothing is comparable to that. Can God hear my prayers?

对不起...

为什么大人的世界总是那么的复杂?而我,总是拿捏得不好.是我还不够成熟去面对着所有的一切一切,还是我自己真的那么头脑太"简单"了...

是我大意...
原本好好的两个人,顿时变成了陌生人...
为什么我总是犯同一个错误...

好友不是什么可以说的吗?至少我是那么想,我只是付出真心对待我的好朋友... 换来的却是'不应该太诚实'...
为什么自己错了,总是喜欢牵扯到一些毫无关连的事物上? 总是把责任拐到别人的身上...
现在也什么时代了,不是说每个人都应该有新时代的想法了吗?
我们晚辈就真的一点都不只得信赖吗?
成年人的世界难道就是喜欢把一件小事搞成一件大事?
诚恳,真诚的世界永远只能在童年的时候找到吗?
可是也不见得我童年时代体会到的,是我应该体会的.

现在真的只能感叹, 一切尽在不言中...

("@")

First thing I wanna apologize to JIN KAK aka YONG RONG for such a lateeee dedication...hehe...

Happy Belated Birthday Wong Yong Rong!!!!!!!!!!! was very busy, you know la... being a future dentist, I've alot to deal with ...ngek ngek ngek...

Hmm... I think I'll see you in dec... and not forget kakilang Eli.

Currently I'm under stress for the upcoming internal exam in 2 weeks time. I have been procrastinating and everytime I make vows to study and my butt will just stick on the bed and not doing anything...

How? Urgent search for a SAVIOUR~~~

Sorry honey again, I've never stop complaining and it always turn out that you have to comfort me and pad me like a baby. That's what I love you for, for being so understanding and caring. You always read my mind. You are neither going through an easy life in Canberra and I do know that you have to face with all sorts of things. Like what you've said, I should be fortunate compared to many outside there. And I would say I am fortunate to have you,老公猪.

muacks!